Obstacles proved that how strong we are.

Assalamualaikum and hey readers and stalkers! hahaha ;)

It had been a long time since I don't write anything in my blog. Well, everyone have their own schedule to deal. 

Btw, today.. my story is about the day when my late grandpa passed away. It is just a short post. 

I still remember. It was 6th April 2011. That day had been destined that my grandpa will go for forever.. 

During that time, of course all my families were sad and crying hardly. Even, my dad. Then, I went outside the patients room. Accidentally, I saw my grandma (which is my late grandpa's wife) sat on one of the benches. She looked so sad and crying hardly. I never saw her crying hardly like that day. 

Because she was the person that always made us laugh. Then, I came closer to her, trying to calm her. I said to her while rubbed her back.. "Sudahlah tu nek..".

And her answer totally hit me, she said weakly, "Ya. Inilah dugaanNya. Yang kita hanya mampu buat hanyalah SABAR.. Sabar.."

Then, I'm just sighed and continued to cry, but, surely, I can see how strong she was. I'm just a little girl during that time. And now, I understand why she said like that. Because be patient is one of the way that prove how strong we are.. And sometimes someone need to cry to relief things that heavy in our heart. 

To be honest, too much things that I regretted. Firstly, because my late grandpa lived at a place over 100 kilometers away from us, so we just went to see them occasionally. I regretted that I didn't spent too much time with him, but this time, I don't want it happen with my grandma :')

The hospital where my grandpa entered always remind me of him. I always feel like...he was still at there waiting for us to visit him. I know it was insane, but, I just can feel his presence at there..

Btw, be strong you guys! Smile even you're sad. Let out all your sadness with pray to God. :)

Dear diary: Beautiful End of July.

Assalamualaikum and hey you guys!

Yayy. It was December now! Rainy days are always come in my country. But sadly, it was a last month in this year :( and big examination for the 98's liner will come soon next year, I'm scared! Hah! :O

Okay, it is about my old best friend. Even that we had been apart for.. about 10 years (such a long time), I still call him as my best friend. Because he's my very best friend of male I ever have, so, I must appreciate it.

But, you know. We grow up. We change. We know a lot of new things. We meet with a lot of new friends, so, we lost contact after that. (Actually, not really. Because his mom is my mom's friend, and not really best friend :)

I thought he had changed. Seriously. I really thought of that. Because, every time I chat with him (a long time ago), he just like... don't really care about. He just like, "Just go away! You're disturbing me." "You're so awkward, chat with someone all of sudden." Something kinda like that. Then, I stopped chatted with him.

And there's one time when I send him "Happy Birthday" message and he never reply to it. From there, I'm really hurt. Seriously. And I REALLY thought that he had TRULY CHANGED. You know? It was totally hurt when, someone that you assume as a precious person had changed. Truly.

But, I'm mistaken. That day... when it was actually Hari Raya during that time, he went to my house.. with his family actually, I really shocked. Because it had been 2 years since he didn't went to my house for Hari Raya. and I was like.. AWKWARD and "Why he's here!?" (okay, that way too mean). Because I still angry actually.

Then, when they want to leave, my mom told me to give the angpau to his little sister, and all of sudden, I have that braveness to meet him face to face. (ALL OF SUDDEN GUYS) and also.. I told my mom to produce more money for him.

Then, I give it to them. (I'm having a very hard time to be normal, okay not really). Then, we met each other, I was like "Okay, Farah, act normal.. act normal.. act normal pleaseee" *with that cute pleading voice*

Initially, he refused to accept it, but I pushed him to accept it. (Hah!)  and then, when he tried to say something to me..

Something that weird happen. I dunno why but all of sudden I can't hear his words. All I see is his bright face and I realized that I really talk to him like normal. Like I don't ever hate him that much. All the grudge that I hold like just go with the wind. 

And seriously, during that time I realized that he's really didn't change a bit. He's still like the old one. My best friend during my childhood. Too much feelings that I felt during that day. Just imagine, for one year.. I think that he had changed like crazy.

That one feeling that totally made my day during that time; A FEELING OF RELIEF THAT SOMEONE DOESN'T CHANGE. 

Finally..

All my thoughts in one year was proved as wrong. and I feel really relief. Seriously. All of that worries had gone. Thanks God. It make me smile until now.   

Dear Diary: Such a terrible day.

Assalamualaikum and hey you guys!

Yeah. Thanks God, we meet again and I can say that today is one of my sucks day. Totally sucks.

Okay. I'm a bookworm, so it is a nightmare if a person like me can't borrow any books from the library, right?

But..

it had HAPPENED today with me.

Hah. Dang it.

Okay. So, you guys must be curious why I can't borrow any books, right? 

It is because I haven't give back one of my book that I borrowed. My friend borrows it actually, but it went missing!! (Double problems for me. Haha. Terrible. Haha)

And most unfortunately, she doesn't know where's she put it. Like seriously, for crying out loud.. I just feel want to cry a river T.T

She had tried to find it, but, still.. she haven't found it :(

I want to say to the staff that the book went missing, but I'm afraid. Because all of the staff of the library are like "tigers". Seriously. Except that one eonni (sister) that really friendly and always smile. I just like her among the dang staffs. 

And I really confuse what to do. If the book had been found, everything will be settle. I'll always pray to Allah that the book will be found. Aamiin. 

A few days ago, I have a nightmare like this and it really happened. Oh My God. I don't expect it. 

#Holiday! #NovemberStories

Assalamualaikum and hey you guys!

Okay, it had been a very long time and yeah! it was November! Welcome November! I'm just pray and wish to Allah that this month gonna be fine. Aamiin.

And holiday had started! yayy. Finally, rest days are coming! Tbh, I'm totally tired from the school days. Especially, earlier of the year. erghhh. It was so freaking tired when I think it again.

Btw, lately, I'm not that really writing on this blog, because I really don't know what to write actually, but, thanks God, today I've something to write.

Actually, there's nothing special on my holiday. Just stay at home like ages. And also stuck with Twitter and Facebook. Oh, I forgot. With books too (But it is benefit, hehe) hahaha. Actually, I will go for a camp this Friday, but it cancelled for some reasons. And I was like *cries a river*, because I'm freaking bored at this holiday.

Oh, I forgot! and I'm not forget to watch Bangtan Boys (BTS) Rookie King this holiday too, but, sadly, it just has about 8 episodes and I had watched it all. I want more from them! T,T 
Btw, it made me laugh a lot xD

Btw, Imma have a very great day yesterday. Yesterday, my friends and I were sending our participation paper for those camp to our teacher. After that, actually, my friend invited me to hangout with them. Initially, I wanted to refuse it due to the weather that was totally HOT!

But..

I felt guilty and just accepted it. Then, yeah, tbh, that was my very first time hangout with them together at the town, so, I decided to make some memorable moments in this year.

It was just a simple hangout, but priceless.

Walked up to town. Thigh hurt. Bought some "mangga asam+kicap+amoi+lada" (typical food for the sour food lover). Ate "mee sup" and fried chicken. Laughed with them. They try their luck with those "Win An iPhone!" game (I dunno what that called, but something kinda like that).

And this my FIRST time eat "mangga asam+kicap+amoi+lada" deliciously too. hahaha.

Not a fancy hangout, but it was still memorable. At least, I had done something precious with my friends this year. :)

Actually, I don't know why, lately, I feel there's something broke in my heart and I JUST DUNNO WHY. But you know, teenagers always like that. Especially girls that are grown up.

Then, there was this one night that I can't sleep. Then, I decided to make a reflection with myself. I told all my heartbroken, sadness, frustration in my heart with myself. Told myself all sorrowful things that I had overcame. All things that I had struggled. Surely, I was like crying a river, but it was such a big relief. Then, I sleep calmly.

Then, the next day, I don't expect that I had a great day with my friends. I'm really feel grateful to Allah. Thanks Allah.

Okay, that's all my lame story. hahhaa. Just kidding. Thanks for read, stalker! xD

Insyaallah, we'll meet again with Allah's Wills.

My dearest brothers.

Assalamualaikum and hey you guys!

Alhamdulillah, we meet again. And, guess what? My examination had ended! Yayy. I feel relief a little bit. Just a little bit, because actually I was worrying about my result. I pray that I get a very good results. Aamiin.

Btw. Today's title is actually about my brothers. I feel like want to tell about them all of sudden. I just dunno why. 

Basically, I have 2 siblings, and all of them are male. I'm the youngest. The cutie one :p
To be honest, I'm not that really close with my brothers when I'm just a little girl. They hate me so much. hahahaha. 

They always mocked me, teased me and made me cried.  Because, from my observation, "Do not befriend with girls" is their MAIN RULE. I guess. 

There was one time when I'm alone and saw them with their gangs (all of them were male), then I went to them to talk with them.. guess what happen? They chased me. That person who chased me were not my brothers. He was the person that I really hate until now. (He's actually a Casanova, that's why I hate him)

Tbh, I was so humiliating during that time. I have many friends actually. But, you know, there's time that their parents don't let them go out to play. 

Then, when we all grow up, our attitude changed immediately. My first brother naturally being good with me. But, my second bro, it takes a lot of time. Then, there's one day when my brother went to Langkawi to attend an extreme camp (I guess). He was at there about over 3 weeks. 

And when he's not at home, I feel lonely all of sudden and I said this all of sudden..

"Saya rindu oh si I**."

All of sudden. hahaha. I actually said that untuk suka-suka saja. Then, after he came back from there. My mom told him that I miss him (actually half miss, half not, ngeehhehehe).

From there, with naturally, we became closer as a sibling. My second brother is my closest bro. Seriously. I feel so lonely without him. Because, all of his jokes just made me laugh everyday. We used to watch Epen Kah Cupen Toh to laugh. 

He's so kind too, truly.. he had bought me about.. 6 books? (5 books for my PMR presents and 1 book because of my desire) hahhaha. and he also give me that vintage school bag too. But for some reasons. It is sooo pretty. I'm a vintage things lover tbh.

And about my first bro, I'm not really close to him due to he's working like day and night. So, we have that much time together. Btw, he's a very GOOD LISTENER. Seriously. 

As a proof, there was one day when I knew the person that I like sooo much had girlfriend, I feel like can't breathe, and I cried for a night. Then, I just don't know with whom I want to tell it. Then, I tell him. Then, he played a song called "Run" by Epik High. He said that..

"When I'm sad, I used to play this song."

(such a genius listener ;)

As I said early, I feel so lonely without my second bro. Now too. Actually, when I'm lonely, I used to play with my dearest cat named "Tommy". But, since it dead, all had changed. I can say that the day it dead is one of my second hardest day in my life. It's the only cat that I realized understand me and loveable so much. Okay. I'm not gonna talk much about it. (If you're curious about that cat, you can ask me anything :)

Okay. Let's change the topic a little bit. Ok, since I like BTS, I used to watch their "BANGTAN BOMB" videos about everyday. When you're stress, go watch it. Saya jamin you'll never regret.

I wish I have a great friendship as BTS's members' friendship. 

Btw, let's end here. hehehe. We'll meet again with Allah's Will. 

Special Post : Selamat Hari Lahir, Piah !

Assalamualaikum and hey you guys!

So today, umm, actually this is not the very official post like I do before, because today is my best friend's birthday! sbenarnya saya mau buat kejutan utk dia through blog. heheh. 

#ucapan : 

Selamat hari lahir, Piah! 

Semoga kau sentiasa sihat walafiat, sentiasa happy, sentiasa senyum, jangan stress2 (especially sma kwan2 kau di kelas), ingat2 lah sama kami (sy, jamilah, jijah, wani, pika, nurin). Saya harap kau masih mcm dlu. Sentiasa jaga diri, jangan lupa solat, dan ingat-ingatlah Allah.

Ingat-ingat lah dgn janji kita msa lepas PMR dlu yang kita tdk berubah dan masih kontek kontek. Saya sentiasa sayang kau sebagai adik saya walaupun kita bkn adik-beradik. Dan, serius, saya rindu saat-saat kita ketawa berhabisan dlu. Klu boleh, saya mau ulang balik tu saat. (Okay, menahan menangis sdh ni, haha :')

#throwback, saya ingat lagi macam mna kita boleh berkenal dulu. Masa masuk tingkatan 1, kita tersatu meja kan? lepas tu, si hawani ingat saya orang Cina (LOL much). wakkaak. Lepas tu dia suruh kau tanya siapa nama saya. Lepas tu si hawani terkejut lagi kan saya pandai cakap melayu. hahaha. Lucu ni saya rasa.

Lepas tu pernah lagi saya marah kamu yang tiba-tiba ni, sebab di surau pun kamu ketawa sampai tidak ingat dunia. Lepas tu yang kita betul-betul terapat masa tingkatan 2. 

Masa tu durang Jamilah, Jijah dan Pika selalu tiada di kelas sebab pgi latihan nasyid. Masa tu kamu rapat betul sama si pika dan saya rapat betul sama durang jijah & jamilah. Time durang tiada, tiba2 ni kita terdiam, lepas tu kamu pindah tempat duduk pgi satu pgi dengan saya. Time tu lah, kita terapat betul.

Sebab saya minta cerita kamu apa yang selalu bkin kamu ketawa terbahak-bahak. Lepas tu, kamu ceritalah zaman kamu di sekolah rendah. Then, kita selalu ketawa. Ketawa saja kerja sepanjang tahun. Astaga. Saya rindu betul oh masa tu. :')

Akhir kata, jagalah diri selalu Piah. Saya sentiasa berdoa agar persahabatan kita kekal. Aamiin :) I love you, Piah :)

Kita zaman muda-mudi :)

#OctoberStory

Assalamualaikum and hey you guys!

It's been a long.. very long period. Okay. Kali ni saya campur2 ja lah ckp. English cmpur dengan Malay, k? (jangan menyampah sy speaking english sblum ni ye bang ye kak)

Okay. Today's title is #OctoberStory a.k.a #CeritaOktober. Memang pun banyak saya mau cerita. Harap tak membosankan lah yer. ngeheheh.

Ok, as I told you before in my past post, you can check here (sini!!) , saya sesangat lah busy due to my last exam semester. Kali ni saya betul-betul berazam untuk tingkatkan prestasi akademik saya. 

#FirstStory, pasal azam saya untuk mau tingkatkan prestasi. Seriously I'm saying, saya sangatlah kecewa dengan result PMR saya #throwback .Sesetengah org ckp result PMR sy kira okay sdh, tapi tidak tau lah, mungkin saya yg terlampau.. ya, terlampau BERHARAP. Kadang-kadang bila ingat balik saya rasa saya tidak bersyukur dengan result saya. Tapi, Alhamdulillah, sebab wlupun sy tidak puas hati dengan result saya, saya tetap dpt masuk kelas yang sangat baik. Ini pun sebab berkat doa Ibubapa saya. 

Semenjak result PMR saya agak menghampakan, terus-terang, mula-mula saya hampir putus asa. Tapi, thanks to Cikgu S.M yang sangat peramah sebab suntik kami sekelas dengan nasihat-nasihat yang POWER. Thanks to my closest brother yg saya anggap mcm best friend sdh, Abang I, sebab bagi saya kata-kata semangat selepas result PMR keluar. 

Dari sana, saya tau yang saya tidak layak untuk putus asa. Dan saya layak untuk dapat keputusan akademik yang baik. So, saya banyak buat latihan dan soalan tahun-tahun lalu. Remember! Tiada apa yang mustahil kalau kita berusah bersungguh-sungguh. Kita pun ada hak untuk berjaya!

#SecondStory, sejak akhir-akhir ini dan saya tidak tau bila (actually I forgot), saya minat 방탄소년단 a.k.a BTS all of sudden. ALL OF SUDDEN GUYS. Okay, kidding, it is actually because of this song and it was happened. After I hear that song, I check out of that real song. You know what, my first impression about this song is that it was like a PROPOSAL SONG (maybe because the end of the M/V Jin is holding a rose). This song is just BEAUTIFUL, seriously. 

And I knew many of them, actually ALL of them. And what I like more about them, they have a thing called 'BANGTAN BOMB' that consists many of their daily life videos, INCLUDING that idiot and crazy things, as dancing to idol girl group dance, eating salad, and say "Hi" for 9 seconds. 

hahaha LOL. Tbh, they're an UNIQUE korean boy band I ever met. Instead of their wild character, they show to their fans that they're happy, cute and loveable kids too. hahaha. They don't care of their image as an idol.  And among them, V (Taehyung) is the most craziest and weird. Believe me. 

And seriously, I think this is my very first time minat lagu yang ganas-ganas. Hahah. Sebab BTS. I just don't know but lagu dorang yang ganas-ganas saya rasa syok ni. (Never happen in my life, LMAO) Among of them, tbh, I really love Jimin and J-Hope's friendship, also V(Taehyung) and Jungkook's friendship. ;))

#ThirdStory, Jimin & J-Hope's friendship remind me of my very best friend, R. Seriously, saya sangat-sangat rindu dengan dia. Rindu mau bercerita. Rindu mau berketawaan. Rindu mau menjalani hari-hari kami together. Saya rindu segala-galanya :'D Ngam-ngam lagi beberapa hari yang lalu, saya mimpi pasal dia. Banyak kali ni saya mimpi dia. 

Sometimes when we miss someone, we just need to meet her in our dream utk melepaskan rindu. :') It had been 4 years kami apart. Saya harap dia still macam dulu. Saya harap dia masih anggap saya best friend. There's no istilah "ex-best friend", never ever. 

#FourthStory, I miss sama kawan-kawan saya tahun lalu. Tbh, tahun lalu adalah "The Most Great" year I ever had. Sebab I had laughed so much with my best friends berbanding tahun ini. Seriously, kalaulah ada tu meja si Nobita yang macam sana Doraemon, saya mau ulang balik tu saat-saat yang saya ketawa happily oh. 

Saya rindu juga dengan classmates saya di 3 Setia. Walaupun kelas kami kena 'label' kelas paling jajal dan banyak guru tidak mau masuk, tapi kelas kami still 'happening' and happy go lucky. Especially yang pak lawak pak lawak tuuu. Saya dengar cerita merepek durang yang bikin ketawa saturang. LOL.

The End.

Okay, not yet. Sebelum saya mengakhiri post beta, beta ingin ngeupload Quotes a.k.a kata-kata hikmah :) 

Salam. Semoga berjumpa di lain post lagi! Insyaallah, with Allah's Wills. 

Hello August and September!

Assalamualaikum and hey you guys!

Wewww, it had been 2 months since I didn't write anything on my blog. Well, as always, I'm busy as a student. With the 'homeworks', work sheets, tuition.. (but the fact is, I'm not that really going to tuition lately, shhhh) I really hope it won't upset my tuition teacher. 

Yeah, firstly because I really need a lot of rest lately. I don't know why. I think that my 'dizziness' come again at anytime, and it always come whenever it is afternoon, after school. It sounds hilarious, right? but me, it is a SERIOUS thing. 

Then, last August, I guess.. It was totally made me feel stranger when I met a stranger accidentally about TWO times. I didn't knew why, but it was totally made me felt AWKWARD. yeah. Because, tbh, I haven't meet a stranger accidentally more than ONCE.

Actually, there's not that much I want to write at here actually. Btw, I'll be inactive for a while because of my upcoming last semester examination and..

I have DETERMINE to get a better result for this last semester. At least, better than mid semester. 

To put it in a nutshell, wish you success for those who will attend for their examination too and have a nice and good day! 

:)

Sweet Sour of July.

Assalamualaikum and hey you guys!

Yeah. We meet again. It was such a longggggggg time. Yeah. Imma quite busy lately. With a pair of homeworks, tuition classes and so on, so, 

I'll take this chance to write the most bored things ever. hahaha. kidding. 

Actually, a lot of things happen on this July but unfortunately I forgot certain of it and yeahh.. I forgot to say Salam Ramadhan to all Muslims in the world. Even it was a last day to fast and tomorrow is EIDUL FITRI a.k.a HARI RAYA. 

and yeahh, HAPPY EIDULFITRI to all Muslims in the world! (I knew it was still early)

hmm, on this month (July), during fasting month, I found that myself became more diligent. Yeah, tbh, I'm lazy person (shut your judgement up) hahahah, well, everyone is a lazy person too, right? :p

Most people (not all) thought that we became weak when it was fasting month, but, actually no. You're wrong. You'll become more diligent during fasting month. It was one of the miracle of fasting :)

Yeah, as usually, too much obstacles I overcame on this month. The people around me, the surroundings, my close friend. But yeah, that is "life struggle". C'est la vie.

And I thought that this year was the year that I can felt how sad fasting month will left us soon. Honestly, I had never been feel that way, but thanks to Allah because finally I can feel that 'feeling'. 

And yeah, I started to like GOT7. They're JYP Entertainment's new band in Korea and all of them was soo adorable. Especially, Yugyeom. Ngehehee. He's the youngest in his group. He's just one year older than me. I repeat. ONE YEAR OLDER THAN ME. He has a mature look, king of reaction and I really love it xD

                                                                     Cutie Yugyeom :D

I started to like them when they made their comeback with "A" in their new album "GOT7 GOT Love". I love them because most of their "A" music video's scenes are in Malaysia... and I'm proud of my country. hehehe. and then I started to 'stalk' them. 

f(x) made their comeback "Red Light" recently too. and I think this is my very first time to like them soo much. I really love their new album's theme and their photography of the album too. It was just a great photography. 

About a week ago, I had borrowed two books from the library and it was such an interesting story. I haven't finish yet. It were, Love at Second Sight by Cathy Hopkins and Love? Maybe. by Heather Hepler. I just started read certain pages for that Love at Second Sight by Cathy Hopkins.

Hopefully, it will be a delicious books ;) Insyaallah, we'll meet again. Insyaallah :)

Dear Diary: Experience as a "housewife" for 7 days.

Assalamualaikum and hey you guys!

Alhamdulillah, we meet again! and.. holiday habis sudah -,- *feeling lame*

Today is the first day of semester II. Frankly, I'm not that want to go to school. Holiday mode is still on!! Erghh. I hate this feelings. Dunno why, I didn't have that spirit to study earnestly on this first day. (OMG! OMG! It can't be! I must being spirited again!)

Okay, before that, a very special birthday speech to my adik 10 hari muda, Fahimah Faimin a.k.a Mimi! Happy Birthday Fahimah! May Allah always bless you with happiness, health and peace! Good luck SPM for next year! Keep smile and happy, k? PPIM fighting! ;) I knew, we just got our examination paper today, so don't feel so sad with any marks we got, we can improve it on another examination. :)))

Okay btw, today I'm gonna talking about my experience as a "housewife" for 7 days during holiday. 

A week ago, my parents went to KK because my mom had her examination at there for over one week, so, because I'm the ONE AND ONLY beloved daughter of my family *la la la~*, I took all that works and chores at home that my mom always did everyday and every night,

INCLUDING wash the dishes, manage all things about my cats, clean up the clothes, do that, do this and there were soo many chores I need to do instead of did my pakej percutian. :3

Frankly, IT WAS SO HARD to do chores while did your homework. I told you, it was so hard than I thought. 

And then I realize, how hard my mom DID ALL THAT CHORES while TEACHING PUPILS while FOCUS ON HER STUDIES, and that was sooo AMAZING!!!

She's a great woman, teacher, mom and student. Totally great. How can she manage to do all that. My tears was falling thought all of that. I knew, sometimes, I always made her works getting more harder. I feel guilty. 

Btw, there were too much advantage I got from did this job. I can learn how to cook while I'm alone and all that experience I had will gave too much advantage when I get married one day. 

Most of all things getting well today, but dunno while, during assembly, I felt a little bit weak and tired. I really dunno why. I felt like wanted to go home badly as fast as I can. I felt like I got sick but actually I didn't. I felt that I'm getting anxious easily for nothing. Maybe it was because of my homework, I did all that hardly. 

Today, when my father asked every marks of my subject, he was a little bit upset. I didn't ever saw him gave that reaction in my entire life. Seems like he was too upset. I guess. Or maybe because his mood was not that good and he was easily getting angry. I hope so.

btw, books and I were getting more suitable and comfortable. Like seriously, I found too much fun books at my school library for the first time in my life. hahaha. lolz. and I'm going to borrow it tomorrow. hahhaa.

sooo, that's all. Thanks for read this boring entry. nah kidding. I knew it's kinda boring. but, I don't care. hahhaa. Hope we meet again on another entry. Insyaallah. :)

Dear diary: Blast day! and Mom's Meaningful Advice.

Assalamualaikum and hey you guys! Alhamdulillah, we meet again! :D

I think today is my greatest day I ever have. I'm finally officially 16 years old. HUHU. 

Goodbye 15, Hello 16 ! :D

Hmm~ bila saya amati balik semua peristiwa yg pernah saya lalui dalam kehidupan saya. Sy sedar yang, I had been overcome too much obstacles in my life. I always try to be a strong person. Even sometimes, I will cursing because of too much depress. 

but, yeah, C'est la vie. It is mean "that's life.." Begitulah kehidupan. Ia bukan kehidupan jika tiada turun dan naik serta tanpa sebarang dugaan dariNya. Tidak indah kehidupan ini tanpa ujian dariNya.

UjianNya itulah yang membuatkan kita sentiasa kuat menghadapi suatu ujian yang berat. Hidup ini memang indah kalau kita hargai dan bersyukur kepadaNya terhadap suatu benda tu walaupun sekecil zarah.

Btw, I'm having a very great day today. I don't expect that my parents will bought me a cake. haha. Honestly, sy terharu :') 

 Kek ituuu. Hahaha. Mohon jangan dicuri gambar ini yerr. Nama pun sdh tertulis. haha ;)

Both of pictures photography by me. hee~

Btw, thanks Dad for sponsors this cake! ILY soo muchh ;* Party kecil-kecilan saja. huhu. Tapi saturang teda. Menunggu abg a.k.a adik celop saya balik nanti. hahaha. 

Too many great things happen today. Alhamdulillah. 
Include my mom's meaningful advice.

My mom always told me this, but, I don't know, I think that it is so special for today. One thing that I love about my mom is, she is a open-mind person. No wonder if I'm talking about LOVE and MARRIAGE with her like nothing. hahaha. She's sooo "spoting". 

Firstly, she told me to not love someone too MUCH. Because it can cause too MUCH hurtful. 

Secondly, she told to not to give my credit card to my future husband too. Obviously, because "anything" can happen on the future. If you still don't understand it, just think it deeply. hehe.

Umm, actually, that's all that I remember, but that two advise were so powerful till I can remember until now. huhu :3

My holidays just going good. I'm spending my time more to read books, write Hangul again after a long time I don't practice to write it and do a pile of pakej percutian hoho. Logot logot seja lah.

Yehet! Saya happy ni lepas dapat pgi Eaton's Bookstore hari tu. Saya mengaus sudah pgi sana. Alhamdulillah, dapat juga semangat mau belajar lepas beli beberapa buku pelajaran dannn...

Eserou pe terbeli satu buah novel. Tajuk dia, "Mr.Cupcakes". Comel cover dia. haha. 

Btw, for those who had wished me birthday. Thanks a lot! I really appreciate it! May God bless you all. Aamiin~

Dear diary: Misunderstand happened again.

Assalamualaikum and hey you guys!

Alhamdulillah. I'm here again with my new story. hehe. 

Okay, i don't know why. On this holiday, well, relaxing time.. something kinda like that. Actually, it is not soo a great holiday. I'm  just stay silently at home. Terperap di rumah saja. Harap-harap lah terputih muka. wakaka

Okay, enough with that. Yeah, I think all people had been experienced this situation too; 

    "That moments when you're just don't know what to do and your mind flies to all things that you had overcame before."

And that what had happened to me recently on this holiday. All of sudden, I thought about my best friend. Even that we had been separated by different class, that doesn't mean we can't communicate each other. 

But, I don't know why, i think things had changed. Whenever I smile at him, he's just... I don't know what to say. It's not wrong to smile at your best friend, right?

I can feel that our friendship is a little bit fades. Yeah,I know.. respectively busy with our own schedules. 

But thing that made my heart a little broke was, when I said Salam to him and he's just through me like nothing happen and yeah... as a woman, who doesn't terasa?

but, I just think positively cause I'm afraid that same thing between my old best friend and I happen once again. 

Maybe during that, he was rushing. 

It is just made me feel sad when I thought that, we had been be a close friend, we always chat, we always laugh at each other, whenever we meet accidentally, he will greet me friendly and warmly.. he's just like a brother. Yeah, I considered him as my big brother. 

but then, all that changed.  

Okay Farah.. just think positively. THINK POSITIVELY :)

Last but not least, thanks for read! You had read my private things! hahah, just kidding. ;) Insyaallah we'll meet again. Aamiin.

Lastly, have great summer day! :D

Hello May! :D

Assalamualaikum and hey you guys!

Alhamdulillah. Kita bertemu lagi di lembaran yang baru. It was such a long time since I did not wrote anything on this cute little blog. *la la la~ na na na~*

Okay. Itu merepek. Sebenarnya saya pun tidak tau apa mau tulis. hahaha. Saya mau kasitau saja yang sekarang ni saya sedang, EXAM! 

Saya ambil ni kesempatan sikiiiiiiijap kunun mau tulis di blog. Walaupun sebenarnya masih ada Paper 2 Biology bisuk dan saya harus ulangkaji malam ni dan saat ni juga. Buruknyo perangai

Okay. Honestly, ini first experience rasa macam mana exam SPM yang sebenarnya. Maksud saya, dia punya format semua. Overall, susah jugalah. Especially yang part soalan esei yang banyak markah.

Sebab once kita tidak tau macam mana mau explain, terus 'stuck' ni. hehehe. Tapi tidak apa, macam orang putih bilang, "Practice make perfect". haha. Insyaallah, saya akan usaha lebih lagi.

6 days to go lagi utk exam saya. ngehehe. Tidak apa. Satay strong! Opps. Sejak bila tertypo habis ni. hahhaah. LOL. Stay strong!! :D

Peperiksaan ni satu perjuangan. :D

Hmm, since this 5 months. Alhamdulillah. Sudah dapat sebatikan diri dengan classmates yg gila2 and funny serta the subjects, but ada certain things lagilah yang belum berapa sebati. hehe. 

Actually, I had learned many things this 5 months. Kalau kita hargai suatu benda tu walaupun sekecil zarah, kita akan rasa hidup ini sangat indah. ;)

Lastly, ini tips saya untuk menghadapi peperiksaan; 

1- Baca dan ulangkaji balik topik yang sudah dipelajari. Fokus dengan topik yang tidak berapa.

2 - Sekali lagi saya tekan kan, fokus dengan topik dan subtopik yang tidak berapa. 

3 - Buat soalan tahun-tahun lalu dari negeri mana-mana saja supaya tdk terkejut sama format dia & kebiasaannya 80 - 70 % dari tu soalan akn sama dengan soalan yg kita akn jawab. Btw, jangan terlalu bergantung dengan kertas soalan latih tubi tu, latih tubi tambahan dari mana-mana buku adalah amat digalakkan. 

4 - Sebelum mula menjawab tu, berdoa mengikut agama masing-masing dengan BERSUNGGUH-SUNGGUH. Minta dengan Tuhan supaya dipermudahkan segala urusan kita semasa menjawab soalan, dan sangat baiklah kalau hari-hari kita buat begitu. Pagi, petang, malam :)

5 - Bagi yang Muslim, jangan lupa utk buat solat hajat dan sentiasa doa dengan Allah (dengan bersungguh-sungguh tau) agar dipermudahkan segala urusan, serta baca Al-Quran. 

6 - Minum air putih boleh melegakan ke'nervous'an kita. Jadi, bawalah air putih :)

Insyallah, kita akan berjumpa lagi di lain lembaran Good Luck! :D 

Attention to all the bookworms out there! Don't forget to check out my new entry soon. Because it is about certain of books that I had read; 2013 & 2014 Wrap Up and my books bucket list. Yehett! Coming soon.. *ala-ala teaser kunun* 

Tekad 2014.

Assalamualaikum and hey you guys!

I dunno when was the last time I wrote my last entry. heheh. It seems so long since I don't write something on my blog. hah! amek kau banyak habuk, LOL . Well. You know. I'm busying with my homework, notes and the oral test soon.

Okay. Since I'm form 4 now msih form3 bah, belum smpai tarikh lahir, muda lagi bah, hahahha :p okay, itu mengarut. Honestly, life as a form4 students was so busy. Tapi yang awal tahun lah. Especially klu yg science student. I dunno the others. Maybe as same as us. 

Banyak org cakap form 4 ni tahun honeymoon. Okay. Let me explain that. Form 4 BUKAN tahun honeymoon sbnarnya, sebabnya tahun depan tiba-tiba ada SPM sudah. Pejam celik pejam celik saja tu. 

Jadi mesti fokus dari awal lagi supaya dapat kputusan yang cemerlang (Insyaallah) dalam SPM. Tidak payahlah mau drop-drop. SPM bukan mcam PMR & UPSR lagi. 

Bah. Berbalik kepada tajuk utama hari ni chewahh. Ya. Tekad. Apa tu tekad? Tekad tu secara ringkasnya bermaksud berazam atau berniat untuk bersungguh-sungguh melakukan sesuatu perkara. (Pada pendapat saya lah)

So, tahun ini saya bertekad mau, jaga solat, belajar bersungguh-sungguh, buat banyak latih tubi, fokus & tdk mau terlampau ketawa di kelas, ikut jadual waktu belajar saya dengan baik, no more crushes [except with korean idols ;)], jaga kesihatan, kurangkan makan & minum yg manis dan segera menyiapkan kerja rumah yang kena bagi. 

That are a lot, right? But, I don't care how much it is, yg penting, untuk kebaikan diri saya juga :)

Saya mula bertekad untuk tahun 2014 ni bila.. ada satu hari tu, ada saturang cikgu saya tu dia tanya pasal abg-abg saya. Lepas tu, dia ckap lah yang abg saya sorang tu antara yg dapat keputusan SPM yg terbaik di kelas dia. 

Lepas tu, cikgu saya tu nasihat dengan saya, kau pun mesti buat yang terbaik dalam SPM. Sebab macam lain kalau anak orang yang berada tidak dapat keputusan yang baik.

Then dari sana saya teringat balik result PMR saya yg agak.. hambar. Tdk payah tanyalah, tapi mmg ada gred C & D.  Seriously, mula-mula saya kecewa sama result PMR saya, tapi day by day it getting well.

tapi cikgu saya tu selalu cakap sama kami, "Keputusan PMR yang cemerlang bukan penentu keputusan SPM yang cemerlang." 

Mulai saat itu, saya mula bertekad sudah dari tahun ini lagi saya mau belajar bersungguh-sungguh. Bukan lagi macam tahun-tahun lalu. 

"Saya mau lakukan satu perubahan ke arah positif. Insyaallah. Semoga Allah permudahkan segala urusan saya. Aamiin."

Yeahhhh!

Hahaha. Such a cute. I don't know who korean idol is that, but I guess they're from EXO :)

Hwaiting! Fighting! Believe that you can do it!

Memorable 2013 and new beginning for 2014 :)

Assalamualaikum and hey you guys!

It's 2013!! Ehhh Oppss, sorry, silap tahun. hahahah. 2014 lah!! heheh. 

Actually....the betul-betul actually manglish, year 2013 had left me with many good and bad memories. That's why, I still miss it. Totally miss it. 

Alhamdulillah, thanks to Allah SWT because in year 2013, there are many good memories than bad memories. 

in year 2013, I found many good people, good crushes (oppss :p) awesome and amazing memories either it's with my families or friends, good experience and many more. 

the most important is, in year 2013, my prayer become more better (Alhamdulillah) than last year and..

I had tried to wear tudung labuh at anywhere, but about wearing tudung labuh, it's still in progress, but I'm still glad cause I had succeed to wear it at the outside place even just one time. Yeahh! I had succeed. Alhamdulillah, :') 

I still remember, during that time, it's Ramadhan Kareem for year 2013, then, I'm attending 'Usrah'. It's something kinda like a meeting but informal and we're discussing all about Islam in many aspects, as about the Malam Lailatul Qadar, Woman, Akal, and many more. 

Then, I still remember one of my 'kakak Usrah' says, she says something that I will always remember and never ever forget.

She says, 

"Kalaulah satu hari nanti terdetik dalam hati kamu tiba-tiba sahaja mau solat 5 waktu, walaupun sebelum ini kamu tdk pernah full solat.. Terdetik di hati kamu mau pakai tudung, tutup aurat dgn sempurna, walaupun selama ini kamu tidak tutup aurat dgn sempurna ataupun langsung tidak pernah tutup aurat.. 
dan terdetik di hati kamu mau buat apa-apa saja amal ibadah yg baik walaupun selama ini kamu tidak prnah buat. Buatlah...sebenarnya, hidayah Allah telah sampai kpda kmu masa tu. Jdi jangan lambat-lambatkan ia sebab takut Allah tarik balik hidayah itu dan kamu tidak dapat lagi itu hidayah buat selama-lamanya."

Then, after that, kebetulan masa tu bulan Ramadhan, so I told to myself, "It's the time for me to improve my prayer." Alhamdulillah, it's worked.  Till now, my prayer become more better than before. Kalau ada solat sy yg tertinggal, saya belajar & berusaha utk qada' (ganti) ia.

That's why year 2013 is truly meaningful for me.

About 2014 pula,

It's just a new beginning for SPM students like me. ngehehe. Baru mau kenal format baru SPM. 

First day at school in the class, kelas kami paling diam masa pagi-pagi. HAHAHAH. I realized that. The other class semua bising & sempat lagi main-main. heheh. Malu bah mau bertegur sapa kalau hari pertama. 

Then, ada yang ckap, kelas kami bikin takut sbb asal pagi-pagi, diaaaam saja. hahaha. Bukanlah bah yg smpai bunyi "krik krik krik" saja. Tapi kelas kami mmg tidak terlampau bising lah. Day by day, makin byk dari sekolah lain ni masuk kelas kami. huhu. banyak budak baru ni. 

Kelas kami mula tidak awkward sdh masa lepas pendidikan jasmani hari tu. Tiba-tiba semua ketawa-ketawa. hahah. 

anddd, I just want to say that, setakat ini, saya rasa syok sama subjek Chemistry, Add Maths, Maths and Sejarah. 

Tapi, tdk bermakna yg lain saya rasa tdk syok..syok.. tapi antara semua, ini 4 subjeklah paling saya rasa best. Physics and Biology, kami baru pengenalan, but, it's gonna be my new favourite subject soon :)

Cikgu saya ada cakap tadi, "Kalau kita tidak minat sesuatu subjek, automatik terus yang senang pun jadi susah. Tapi kalau kita memang minat betul sama satu subjek itu, terus yang paling susah pun boleh jadi paling senang. Oleh itu, sebarkan lah kasih sayang kamu sama semua subjek yang kamu ambil."

Huhu. Apa yang paling penting. Kita sentiasa positif dalam sesuatu perkara. Misalnya, kita ambil subjek Add Maths then kita rasa subjek tu susah, jangan mengeluh. Cakap saja dalam minda & hati kamu, 

"Oh! Senang saja bah ni. Saya cuma perlu berusaha lebih dari yang biasa. Ya, berusaha cari jawapannya lebih dari yang biasa." 

Insyaallah. Dipermudahkan urusan kamu. 

That's all for today. heheh. Insyaallah, with Allah Wills, I'll write a new story to read. ngehehe. Wassalam~

Everyday is a great day!!

Beautiful dream ever. :)

Assalamualaikum and hey you guys!

Okay. Hari ini saya mau cerita sama kamu pasal mimpi saya. hehe. This things happen pada penghujung bulan Disember tahun 2013.

Oraits, sebelum-sebelum ini, bukan saya tidak pernah mimpi indah-indah. Pernah tu memang prnah, tapi inilah first time saya mimpi pasal ini benda. Benda itu ialah...

Bintang. 

Ya. Bintang.

Bintang cantik kan pada waktu malam? Lagi-lagi kalau tidak hujan, tu bintang banyak betul kelihatan di langit.

Saya suka tengok bintang masa malam kalau saya tidak dpt tidur atau rasa bosan. It's make me feel so calm. Totally calm and blissful. 

Subhanallah. Indahnya ciptaan Allah S.W.T.

So, apa kaitan sama mimpi saya? 

I dreamed there are so many stars outside my house in the midnight. Seriously. Betul-betul saya tidak dapat lupa tu scene. Cantik betul ni. Scene dia tersangat lah cantik. I can't describe it with words. Seolah-olah macam tu bintang datang pergi dekat saya. haha. 

Dalam tu mimpi sempat lagi saya capture gambar tu bintang-bintang.

Tapi, malangnya. Ia hanya mimpi. Hanya Allah S.W.T saja yang mengetahui ertinya. 

Masa saya bangun sudah itu, terus saya pergi check handphone saya ini. Hahaha! xD Memang betul lah mimpi, sebab teda tu gambar di handphone. Sedih! T.T

Tapi kalau ada.. memang... I don't what to say la. hahahaha *daydreaming* :p

"Ia hanyalah mimpi, mimpi indah pada penghujung Disember."

:)

Scene dia lebih kurang begini.