Dear Diary : People change, memories don't, ~Dear..Old Friend~

Assalamualaikum and hey you guys.

PMR is just 2 weeks left. I need to multiple my efforts for the best result. Fighting! :D

Guess what. I'm totally shock that Sejarah PMR is actually quite easier than you think. But, you just need to make more and more and more effort at it to get A. The key word is, 'PRACTICE, practice and Practice' . Insyaallah you will get A :)

Ok, today I'm gonna going to tell a story about my old fella. Chewah. Old friend lah! ;)

Hmm, actually, I had hate him for a long time. Because, he seems like not assumes me as his old best friends and that make my heart freaking broken. 

But the truth is, we have that sweet memories since childhood, we ever had many sweet memories. 

We play together, study at the same pre-school, and I ever stole his magazine from his home, then I gave him back. hahah. That is so crazy.

But, all of that memories just fade away like that... and I don't know where that memories go. 

Thing that make me totally sad is... 
That time, I wish his birthday excitedly through message at Facebook, and... 

What he does? What does he replies?

Nope. Nothing.

He doesn't reply it. Huh~ I think it is totally evil. Isn't it? :')

and when I chat with him, he seems like not interest.

Ok fine. I can accept that. Maybe, I'm just messing up with him. Sorry cause I'm disturbing you. :')

A year ago, I had wished him for his PMR through message at Facebook, and he doesn't reply it too. So, I decided to never message him and like all of his status anymore. Cause, I'm hurt. Totally hurt. At least, just reply my message as a sign that you still assume me as a friend. 

Yeah, till now.. I think that he had changed. 

Change. Change. Change.

It is true that people always say, "People change, but memories don't."

Ok fine. Ok fine. Ok fine. It is okay. Truly okay. HAHAHAH. 

Yes, I have many friends left. In this world, my best friend is not only you. But, the fact is, I had lose one of my best friend in my life. 

..."Ingat target masuk kelas sains"... :)

Assalamualaikum and hey you guys!

PMR is just around the corner bhu. (ayat creepyyyy~) hahah. PMR is just 25 days left. Wuuu, tidak sampai satu bulan lagi. Bergegar owh. huhu.

Btw, my trial of PMR just finished, and the result is 'kurang memberangsangkan' -,- 
and I felt a little bit broken heart and DOWN :( 

Sebab, pertama, keputusan menurun sikit. Hari tu dpt 5A, kali ni 4A sja. 
Kedua, 2 subjek yang saya yakin dapat A tiba-tiba jadi B and that is totally IMPOSSIBLE. I don't believe it till now. 

Maybe, teacher sy ada salah check kot. Sy tiada niat mau kasi salah cikgu saya, tapi mnatau kan tersilap sbb deadline mw kasi masuk markah sehari sebelum kami habis exam or saya yg mungkin terlampau confident dpt A :'(

Mula2 sy dapat terima, tapi ntah kenapa, last berkaca-kaca juga ni mata sy. Then, bila saya tau keputusan sy gitu, saya takut mau kasi tau2 parents saya. Sbb takut dorang marah2 saya. 

Pastu, saya kasi luah lah bebanan yg ada di hati saya sama second bro saya. Mula2 tidak mau kasi tau siapa2 trmsuk family sy sbb takut parents sy tau. Tapi saya kasi tau juga sbb sy x dpt pikul ni beban. Pastu sy kasi tau lah semua, alhamdulillah, ringan juga hati saya, abg sy pn ada bagi kata-kata semangat sama saya.

"Kalau trial macam2 bah boleh jadi, pernah ni kes pelajar, masa trial dapat 4A sja, lepas tu masa PMR dia dpt 7A." - Kata2 dia yg paling saya ingat and I can feel myself being spirit again. Thanks bro :)

Esoknya, dia pulang balik di perantauan. Biasalah, lumrah seorang mahasiswa kan. One day, saya pn akan lalui juga semua itu. 

Masa di airport tu, mama sy ada tanya, ada apa2 kau pesan sama si wawa (me) ? sbb dia PMR sdh tu. Pastu dia geleng kepala dan dia bilang "emm, nnti kalau ada saya send di facebook saja lah." Sy pun yang heran2 ni, kenapa tiada dia mau pesan.

Lepas sudah hantar dia, kami pulang lah balik pgi Ranau. Masa smpai sdh di rmh tu, saya terus pgi bilik and lappy. Di lappy saya tu kan, ada sehelai kertas kena sisip, sy pun heran2, saya fikirkan tu kertas kertas kerja PPIM . Pastu sekali check2 kan, inilah perkara di sebalik tu kertas....

You know what, I don't know what to say, but this paper make me feel spirit again after I feel down  :'-) dan saya rasa terharu.

Walaupun dia kadang-kadang jahat sama saya, but it seems quiet in this house without my second bro. Because if all of us being together.. craziness and excited is the answer xD

Btw, satu kali kita gagal bukan selamanya kita gagal. Kita sebenarnya bukan gagal, kita cuma jumpa 100 cara yang tidak berkesan.

Saya akan tunaikan janji harapan abang saya, dan harapan seluruh keluarga saya. Penurunan saya dlm percubaan PMR ni memang ada hikmahnya, hikmahnya agar saya lebih bersungguh-sungguh dlm peperiksaan PMR sebenar. 

Akhir sekali, doakan kejayaan saya dalam PMR, Jazakallah for the doa and semoga Allah permudahkan sgala urusan kamu di dunia & di akhirat, aamiin~