Obstacles proved that how strong we are.

Assalamualaikum and hey readers and stalkers! hahaha ;)

It had been a long time since I don't write anything in my blog. Well, everyone have their own schedule to deal. 

Btw, today.. my story is about the day when my late grandpa passed away. It is just a short post. 

I still remember. It was 6th April 2011. That day had been destined that my grandpa will go for forever.. 

During that time, of course all my families were sad and crying hardly. Even, my dad. Then, I went outside the patients room. Accidentally, I saw my grandma (which is my late grandpa's wife) sat on one of the benches. She looked so sad and crying hardly. I never saw her crying hardly like that day. 

Because she was the person that always made us laugh. Then, I came closer to her, trying to calm her. I said to her while rubbed her back.. "Sudahlah tu nek..".

And her answer totally hit me, she said weakly, "Ya. Inilah dugaanNya. Yang kita hanya mampu buat hanyalah SABAR.. Sabar.."

Then, I'm just sighed and continued to cry, but, surely, I can see how strong she was. I'm just a little girl during that time. And now, I understand why she said like that. Because be patient is one of the way that prove how strong we are.. And sometimes someone need to cry to relief things that heavy in our heart. 

To be honest, too much things that I regretted. Firstly, because my late grandpa lived at a place over 100 kilometers away from us, so we just went to see them occasionally. I regretted that I didn't spent too much time with him, but this time, I don't want it happen with my grandma :')

The hospital where my grandpa entered always remind me of him. I always feel like...he was still at there waiting for us to visit him. I know it was insane, but, I just can feel his presence at there..

Btw, be strong you guys! Smile even you're sad. Let out all your sadness with pray to God. :)

Dear diary: Beautiful End of July.

Assalamualaikum and hey you guys!

Yayy. It was December now! Rainy days are always come in my country. But sadly, it was a last month in this year :( and big examination for the 98's liner will come soon next year, I'm scared! Hah! :O

Okay, it is about my old best friend. Even that we had been apart for.. about 10 years (such a long time), I still call him as my best friend. Because he's my very best friend of male I ever have, so, I must appreciate it.

But, you know. We grow up. We change. We know a lot of new things. We meet with a lot of new friends, so, we lost contact after that. (Actually, not really. Because his mom is my mom's friend, and not really best friend :)

I thought he had changed. Seriously. I really thought of that. Because, every time I chat with him (a long time ago), he just like... don't really care about. He just like, "Just go away! You're disturbing me." "You're so awkward, chat with someone all of sudden." Something kinda like that. Then, I stopped chatted with him.

And there's one time when I send him "Happy Birthday" message and he never reply to it. From there, I'm really hurt. Seriously. And I REALLY thought that he had TRULY CHANGED. You know? It was totally hurt when, someone that you assume as a precious person had changed. Truly.

But, I'm mistaken. That day... when it was actually Hari Raya during that time, he went to my house.. with his family actually, I really shocked. Because it had been 2 years since he didn't went to my house for Hari Raya. and I was like.. AWKWARD and "Why he's here!?" (okay, that way too mean). Because I still angry actually.

Then, when they want to leave, my mom told me to give the angpau to his little sister, and all of sudden, I have that braveness to meet him face to face. (ALL OF SUDDEN GUYS) and also.. I told my mom to produce more money for him.

Then, I give it to them. (I'm having a very hard time to be normal, okay not really). Then, we met each other, I was like "Okay, Farah, act normal.. act normal.. act normal pleaseee" *with that cute pleading voice*

Initially, he refused to accept it, but I pushed him to accept it. (Hah!)  and then, when he tried to say something to me..

Something that weird happen. I dunno why but all of sudden I can't hear his words. All I see is his bright face and I realized that I really talk to him like normal. Like I don't ever hate him that much. All the grudge that I hold like just go with the wind. 

And seriously, during that time I realized that he's really didn't change a bit. He's still like the old one. My best friend during my childhood. Too much feelings that I felt during that day. Just imagine, for one year.. I think that he had changed like crazy.

That one feeling that totally made my day during that time; A FEELING OF RELIEF THAT SOMEONE DOESN'T CHANGE. 

Finally..

All my thoughts in one year was proved as wrong. and I feel really relief. Seriously. All of that worries had gone. Thanks God. It make me smile until now.